Wednesday, November 16, 2011

fairytale life

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I had the best night last night! I went out with my friend (who I think I'm attracted to) and was just expecting to meet up and he want to kiss me and the night would be done - kinda wasn't looking forward to it because I want more than just a kiss. I want to do something fun and be crazy; be young and a little wild.

So he told me where to meet him (some random street). When he got there he asked me if I wanted to walk. So I grabbed my coat and followed after him.  We came upon this lot that's fenced off and says No Trespassing.  It houses powerlines and dirt lol.  And it's SUPER dark since the sign tells you to stay out; he walks over the small chains and says "come on".  

Most people in this situation would be like DONT DO IT. But I thought, screw it! I'm in! And jumped the chains too.

We walked for like 20 minutes to the other side of the lot, talking, laughing and talking about Mexico (where he's from) and my hometown back South.

Once we got to the other side he asked me if I wanted to jump the 12 foot fence or go through the secret hole  at the end. Course I said the hole lol. So we walked over, through and continued walking up the street until we hit this elementary school.  He asked me if I have ever been inside the school.  I looked at it and felt like busting up when I told him "I have no idea where we are". He started laughing and grabbed my hand and said "Come on!"

We came to a little hidden hole (you know the space in between two buildings where schools put small fences) and he asked if I was down.  I kinda looked at him and thought We are so going to the playground! and replied "heck yes I am".  

He jumped up the fence and ONTO THE ROOF!!! I looked up at him, smiled and yelled "Are you serious?!." and hoisted myself up the fence.

Once I got to the roof, he grabbed my hand and helped me jump from rooftop to rooftop, finding lost elementary balls (handballs lol) and taking turns kicking them back down to the blacktop.  I laughed cause he's a football player, so his balls went way further than mine.  But I still gave it my all! I told him that I love that the kids are going to come to school tomorrow and have 50 more balls than yesterday.

We hung out, kicking balls, laughing and walking along the rooftops for a little bit and then he jumped down and told me to jump!!! What the heck! I'm not afraid of heights, but I'm afraid of jump/falling from heights lol.

My addrenaline spiked and I kept telling myself Just do it! He's watching you chicken out. lol. Finally after what felt like forever I sorta climbed/fell down and he caught me.  

We walked back to the lot, through the hole and half way back when he told me I was a pimp!
A pimp! Me?!.

He sat down on this yellow...um. Not even sure what to call it but he made it into a seat and told me he wasn't moving until I admitted I was a pimp.

This went on for an hour. Back and forth questions & answers, plus tons of laughs and smiles.

We finally headed back to our cars and he hugged me tight and told me that I needed to stop watching so many movies because I want to live a fairytale life. Then he hugged me again and told me that he was glad I knew what I wanted cause he didn't anymore.

And we parted.

I was so hyped on joy. And taken that he didn't come out here to get a kiss, some booty and try to screw me in the back of his car. But he actually talked, laughed and spent the best time I have had in a while with me.

Spontaneous.

I love it.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

winner :)

Just found out that I'm the winner of a giveaway! (so awesome. never won anything from a blog before lol).

This beautiful and talented young woman is amazing!
Thank you so much :) 

I'll have to get some photos of my ring posted once I receive it.
Check her out here.

complicated

My first blog mentioned that I was in a complicated relationship.
How complicated is it?
Normal complicated I guess lol.
Hehe. PS. My blogs are personal, thoughts/suggestions/advice is total welcome.  But remember I'm putting my heart on my sleeve here :)

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I'm in a relationship with this wonderful guy. Meaning that he doesn't abuse me and I'm pretty much provided for (which should be end of story right?!.)

Well, we have been great these last couple of years (been together 4, the first 6 months - wonderful.  Year 1/2 after - terrible) have been, well awesome. Hardly no fights and it seems like were married rather than just bf/gf.  Which we both like.

So everything's a fairytale, until the bf decides to be a douche lol.
His mom has been visiting for awhile (she's from out of town) and I think she's stressing him out (she's been here for months. Talk about wearing out your welcome lol).  All in all she's a pretty cool person, but I think he's to the breaking point and because I remind him of her (cause we're both women) he's been a little... insane is the word... lately.

Fights have broken out, things have been said and feelings have been hurt. Not to mention he's taking up heavy drinking (as in everyday and a lot). Driving me up the walls.

So, not that I'm out there looking for it.  Friends have found me and relationships have strengthen and feelings have blossomed in my friends.  I'm seriously on the fence, only because I've invested a lot into this relationship and quite frankly.  I love the turd.

But one of my friends, I'm attracted to.  He also has a gf, but he's not happy in the relationship.

We're thinking of hanging out, cause we have things in common, and I'm curious to know if this relationship could be more?

I feel wrong, so I've been putting him off for awhile.
Confused: 
Not sure if I should just have a romantic fling.
Throw in the towel and see what's out there.
Or keep a good thing and hope once his mom leaves things go back to normal.

It's just complicated.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

musical inspiration

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Painted my nails yesterday and decided to get creative with the design (nail salons don't do the type of designs I want - at least the nail salon I go to).  Not perfect, but I'm in love! Thinking something cheetah print next time.

Smiles
ami

Monday, November 7, 2011

wow!


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Wow! My first blog!!! Hope this rocks your world as much as mine :)
My name is Ami Bright and I love the color pink! What a surprise right?!. Anyways. I have a lot on my mind and too many thoughts to write by hand in a journal anymore. My relationship is complicated and a little wild. But I love church, school and friends. My biggest hobby is crafting :) I love creating my own earrings, clothing and Christmas gifts!! - friends and mother say they love homemade gifts the best.  Hope they mean it! Cause I've been working my butt off this year to get some gifts done :)

I'm thinking about making some cute soaps and candles to sell as well. So if you have advice on anything, please let me know!

Love you guys already.

Smiles - ami